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[Jul. 22nd, 2005|02:05 am] |
i am once again determined.
restriction here i come.
i once was lost, but now i'm found. |
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[Apr. 11th, 2005|01:11 pm] |
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eeew, i couldn't sleep last night because i kept imagining myself grotesquely obese. everything about me ballooned outward like in one of those fun house mirrors. the fat was drowning me. i had to take sleeping pills. |
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[Mar. 12th, 2005|03:06 pm] |
eew. ok so i broke my fast. EUGH! I can't go ONE DAY doing as planned. anyway i told the lady here i ate breakfast so i figured i could get away without lunch. she wouldn't leave til i ate it, so i did.
but as i sat there eating she and her daughter talked to me. they asked me if i'd tried on my prom and grad dresses again recently...then mentioned it might not fit me and i'd have to diet before the events. and THEN the daughter said something along the lines of i eat a lot and the mother defended me saying that no i don't eat a lot, it's just how i am like how she (who is a hell of a lot fatter than me) is even though she doesn't eat a lot.
so i waited til they did leave and purged it.
no WAY am i eating dinner.
that's it, we're done...
what is up with everyone calling me fat lately?
i'm getting a breast reduction...i have DDD boobs...well my DDD bras don't even fit me but they're the biggest i can find. anyway so i was talking with a friend about it and she goes "try and lose weight though, because your boobs shrink a lot" and i'm like "i've gained and lost 25 pounds and saw VERY LITTLE difference in my boob size" and she says "well just TRY...i mean you want to lose weight anyway" it pissed the hell out of me. I told this to my other friend and she laughed...cause the thing is this girl is really the same size as me but with smaller jeans... |
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[Mar. 12th, 2005|12:12 pm] |
new journal!
new success!
this is going to be my journal of success, thank you very much.
i'm fasting now. it's day three sort of. day one i drank diet soda, day two i drank 120 cals in hot chocolate and now i'm gonna drink 14 cals in energy drinks and diet sodas. tomorrow i don't have a plan yet. i may eat...i may not.
but no matter what all of march is to be under 700!! |
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